I know sorrow
I know misery
I know suffering
I know self torment
I know abuse
I know isolation
I know terror
I still carry trauma
I still work at healing
I still see my wounds
I still act in ways I regret
I still scream when no one is looking
I still face the roughest edges of my psyche
I still ditch being responsible here and there
What is different
I stand still
I ask for help
I share with others
I let it all the way down
I stop believing my own lies
I stop believing nothing will change
I stop believing I have no authority
I stop believing there’s no hope
I stop believing that I am unlovable
I stop believing that I am not enough
I stop believing that I won’t succeed
I stop believing the stories that rutted me to the past
I’m ready to let love in
I’m ready to let love cleanse me
I’m ready to let love renew me
I’m ready to let love hold me
I’m ready to let love mend me
I’m ready to let love break the old binds
I’m ready to let love illuminate my hollows
I’m ready to let love fill me
Letting love in
Trying what love can do
Is an act of Faith
Giving myself to something I flinch at over and over again.
Giving myself to something that I’ve conditioned myself against
Giving myself to something that I may never master in this lifetime
Giving myself the chance to be loved and NOT run away from it
Giving myself the chance to know who I am when I am touching love
Self-love offers this;
Stop harboring ill feelings because of things you didn’t know at the time!
Stop harboring ill feelings towards yourself because you didn’t know another way to manage your reaction.
Stop holding yourself back from being in alignment because it’s scary.
Stop holding yourself back from what you most desire, because of who you have been in the past.
These stories only carry the weight you lend them. If you take away the fuse they don’t ignite!
Turn towards your self-love and stop being your own worst friend.
Let love in
Let love lead
Let love guide
Let love convince you
Let love shoulder your worry
Let love move you forward
Let love be your new anchor